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Well I think I’ve calmed down a bit.  Still gets my goat.  I’m seriously thinking of redoing some things.  I am getting to the point I’m tired of giving away information and then get treated like this.   Maybe I should be like others and charge for all my knowledge and such.  No, that probably won’t happen as I’m a good person.  That’s why I have a heart and care.  Just wondering how many more times I have to get walked on before I actually do something about it.

Oh well.  Like the saying goes “Live & Learn”.  Can only go up from here.

I’m so tired of bending over backwards for people and they turn out to be ungrateful or say I’m in the wrong!    Good lord!  Why do I bother?  Oh wait!  I know why.  Because I actually have a heart and care unlike some places out there.  As much as I want to tell people to kiss my a$$ I don’t.  Because like others I know that’s not right and wrong. 

Guess I just pick up the pieces now and go on.  No use crying over spilled milk.  Can’t get any worse.  Can only get better.  Has to.

Well here I sit in front of my laptop.  Trying to get the energy to do some work today.  The only thing about it is that I honestly feel like everything I’m doing is going unnoticed so why bother?

Still have people back stabbing me.  Unpaid accounts.  Wondering how I am gonna pay a couple bills that I have and even if the party I have scheduled for Saturday is going to even happen at this point.

Everyone wants help with this or that but when I ask for a favor I get taken advantage of or blown off.

What I seriously want to do is tell everyone to kiss my rear end and let things happen to them as it has done me.  What comes around goes around.  However, I know if I think positive and keep plugging away it does pay off.  But as of now I honestly don’t see that happening as the light at the end of the tunnel is dim or flickering on and off just teasing me.

I want to go and do things but right now I feel no need what so ever to even go and attempt to do anything.  What I seriously want to do is hang my head down and cry.  But what is that gonna get me besides a runny nose and a headache?  Still, can’t win for loosing.

Well the little ones are being quiet for a change which now scares me and work is calling me to do it.

See ya!

You know, no matter what I do it’s wrong.  I’m still getting stabbed in the back and probably bad mouthed.  People only want me when they need help.  Well guess what?  I’m tired of giving help and being the nice person.  What I really want to do is go and tell these people to go “fly a kite”.  Yes I”m being and keeping that nice. 

I’m beginning to think I should just tell these people, you made your bed now lie in it.  They only contact me when they want something.  No one says thank you or even asks how my day is.  And most of the time when they do they are being sarcastic (sp) because they already know.

Not to mention people want me (because I guess I know or have the knowledge that they lack) to do things and guess who’s gonna be doing it all?  Me.  All they want to do is sit back and have an easy trip.  I can’t ask them for help because they don’t know or don’t want to do it but want me to do it all the while they sit on their bums and I do all the work.

I’m honestly begining to think my help now is worth something and I just may charge for it and/or limit it.  All these years I could not understand and thought it was totally rude when people wanted me to pay for their help.  But now I realize why.  I always thought that was not the way to do business and I wanted to help people.  Well I guess maybe I need to change my ways.  Sometimes it’s hard to teach an old dog new tricks but they do learn.

Oh, and get this.   People actually wonder why I have trust issues with others?  ummm…  H E L L O !!!!!

I’m so tired of being taken advantage of and/or ignored.  But who do they contact when they need someone or need something?  Me!  But when I need something everyone is too busy.  Everyone wants something for nothing and they know Tracey is more than glad to help.  Well not any more.  I just got my brass balls and baby watch out!

I mean come on!  I have bills to pay and a family to raise just like everyone else.  Yes, I do things for others but at times (and alot lately) it’s just getting way out of hand.

Maybe I’ll just happen to get to busy to help anyone.  No one helps me any more so why should I bother?  Screw Tracey.  I got what I wanted.

Ok, enough venting.  Guess I feel a bit better now.  Just needed to get it out.